State of mind: “confused”
Mood: Extremely bad
Desire: To run away
Type of thoughts: All negative
Expected result: Blast
Answer to any
Damn question: “I don’t know”
Well… not a new thing for me… but could never understand … why it happens?? Not only me… many of my frndz also face this at times. And I find it very easy to tell them that…
“jus relax… everything will be alrite… jus let this phase pass… n u will be laughing on urself for these foolish thoughts.” … coz that’s the fact.
But alas... when it happens to myself… I jus forget my lines… :/
I wonder if … “being confused” … can be really considered as a PROBLEM? … I mean… for example… financial crisis, illness, loosing a job, having too many responsibilities, a mean boss or a fight with bf/gf are “obviously” considered as problems… but what about the “confusion”…… huh… confused.
When my mind clearly knows that “something” is ALMOST impossible… and even if it was possible… its just a crazy idea… then why the hell my heart would still want it to happen????? STUPID
When I already know… that I can’t do anything in the present situation… and will HAVE TO just go with the flow… why I would still think about silly questions like “why” and “what”????
When I also believe that whatever is happening is good for me (PRACTICALLY THINKING) … why I would still wish to do something which won’t be good for me????
When there is no visible problem around me… why I am still not happy?
Why I would ask only for what I can’t get… instead of valuing what I’ve already got????
When I’ve already told myself that “I am going to live my life my way… don’t care about what other people think” … Why am I still thinking about others???
Why my life is not only my own?
When I have all the freedom to make my own decisions … and I know what I want to decide… Why I would still consider other people’s opinion and get confused???
How can anyone else be more important in my life than me???
And my favorite answer to all these …
“I DON’T KNOW” … just want to sleep for a while… watch TV … and just forget it.
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